Am I restricted?

OK, so fill 3 was last week. I will definitely say that I feel different from last week, but am I restricted is the question.  I definitely have to slow down, take smaller bites, and sometimes have to pause during my eating….but I can still eat way more than my nurse says I should be able to.  I guess my conundrum is….why am I not getting the signal that I am satiated (full)?  Or, am I missing something, during those moments when I have to pause, is this the message that I should stop?  Am I not interpreting my signals correctly?

Help, Oh wise people who have found their sweet spot.  Am I there yet???? Or do I move on to Fill #4?  The other point is that I am thinking of food a couple of hours later….not 4!

Have I just answered my own question.  Do I go in for another fill with the idea that I am close?  I guess I am just nervous about getting too full…I hate the 1 hour drive to the Dr office.

Ideas, thoughts, wisdom?

Fill #3 – When will I feel different???

Now that I am back from DC, I went in for Fill #3.  Boy did I need it, I felt like I could have eaten like a horse in DC. You can imagine my delight when I stood on the scale today to hear that I am 4 pounds down from my last fill.  Considering the fun time in DC, I was prepared for 1 up…not 4 down!

So, laid on the table, and experienced fill #3, which takes me to either 7 or 7.5cc in my band…can’t rmember and don’t have paper work in front of me.

Today and this evening I look it easy with food, as is recommended.  Tomorrow will tell if there is any restriction.  How many ccs do y’all have in your 10cc band????  Share, please.  As the days on go, I’ll keep you posted on whether or not I need to get in for Fill #4.

I may have mentioned this in the past, but at Thanksgiving I am going to Mexico for a vacay!  My goal between now and then is to be down 30 lbs.  I know I can do it…can you imagine, that will put me over 60lbs down!!!  Crazy.

In Washington DC this week…trying to be good

I’m traveling for business this week and I’m in DC.  Definitely harder to stay on track, as there are so many business meals setup.  Last evening I ordered a Filet Mignon with Asparagus.  YUM!  I immediately cut my 8 oz. in half, and one of the men at my table gladly accepted my other half.  The one thing I notice, is that people are all busy talking and eating, I don’t think anyone really noticed that my helping was much smaller than theirs.  Since I’m not public about my band, this was good news for me.  This week is filled with business dinners at exceptional restaurants, so I will have to draw on that willpower again.  That lovely lady and I are becoming closer friends….I am trying to rely on her much more than I ever had before, because even though I have not hit my sweet spot, I want to at least be going in the right direction with my weight….and that’s DOWN!

So, new girl to DC, any advise? I can see the Whitehouse from my hotel, but will need to get out a little to do some sight-seeing.

To those of you who have left a comment or 2, thank you!

I could eat a horse….

OK, I at least get the nod from my band to eat small bites, and chew well.  The nod comes as a pain to my chest…but dulled appetite…nada….I am always hungry.  I know I will get there, and that this is a journey, but hurry up and get here already  2 more weeks until my next fill…I am worried already, that my weight will have gone up over this period…CRAP!

Also, I am on the verge of drinking a Diet Pepsi….I have not had one since May 19…someone, please tell me to STOP!!!

Drink Water….Drink Water….Drink Water….Drink Water….Drink Water….Drink Water….Drink Water….

I’m going to start doing a daily countdown to my fill, so I can convince myself that my willpower can outrun my desire to eat.

How do I get people to leave comments?

I’m trying to figure out how I  can get more traffic to my blog…..I don’t really want to talk to myself.  Do I need to be more provocative, more opinionated, crazy, out there?

Is it wordpress?  Do I need to be over on blogger?  Can I change something in my settings to get my site “more findable”

July 4, and no celebration foods

Well, it is 10pm, and I’ve made it through the day – no hotdogs, hamburgers, apple pie, NOTHING!  I’m so proud of me!!!  Today, as I was making sandwiches for others, I ate a slice of cheddar cheese.  I must have taken too much of a bite, and MAJOR PAIN!  I went to the bathroom, cause I thought I would have to throw it up, but I found that as I sat on the toilet and then leaned forward, so my torso was somewhat horizontal the pain went away.  I guess this is what you call a learning moment….I don’t want too many of these episodes.  I think because I was focused on something else other than eating, and this mindless eating led to PAIN.  I guess I need to keep telling myself: slow down, think about what your eating,  small bites, and chew thoroughly.

I’ve just boiled the kettle to make some tea.  I’m thinking of chocolate, so its time to drink some tea to take my mind off of the sweet chocolate.

Hungry like the wolf…sing it with me

OK, so today I am soooo hungry…..but nothing has changed in my habits in 1 month…so why today?  Stuff that hunger be-atch back in the cupboard, and tell her to get lost, and not to come back.  Well. I’m drinking hot tea, trying to persuade myself that I am not hungry!

I am getting ready to head to Washington DC with a colleague and they are all fixated on where we will eat…normally, I am too….but not now, I’m just hoping I can focus all my energy on being focused on my goal of loosing weight…which means healthy choices, small portions, no dessert, and Starbucks Oatmeal for breakfast 🙂

Playing it safe and staying yellow….

Through much advise, I am waiting until I return from my trip to get my 3rd fill.  I was 90% leaning this way, and the advise of those who are also on this journey took me the other 10% there…..so I will go to Vancouver in the yellow zone.  One thing I do know is that I will book my 3rd fill now before I leave, so that I can get the day and time I want 🙂

Now it’s all about staying focused, keeping the kcals down, and the activity up!  Send me your good energy as you move into the weekend.

Lovin’ life as I move from yellow to green

Yep, I’m still in the yellow….onwards toward Fill #3

OK, so I believe that I can feel the band working for me, in that I need to be careful how big my bites are, and I have to chew real well….much more than last week.  So, I know things are going in the right direction….however, I can still eat a boatload.  So, I think I am close, with a little room to go.  The question is, do I go right away – as in 1 week from second fill, or do I wait?  I could go this Thursday, but then on Friday I am leaving to go to Canada for 4 days.  So, do I get a fill right before I go, or do I wait until I come back?  Any and all wisdom would be appreciated….so please speak up.  I am leaning towards waiting until I get back to get the next fill…just in case.  I’d hate to be up in Canada and feel like I am too full.

Other than that, life is good.  I went out for lunch today with a friend and her family.  They don’t know I got a band, and I felt comfortable that there was nothing that seemed odd about my eating….so kept my secret a little longer 😉

If you find my blog, and you’ve got any guidance, insight, feedback for me….please leave a comment.  I promise to respond.

Am I yellow or am I green…only time will tell

Today I went for my 2nd fill.  I met Jessie…and she said lets get aggressive.  I was at 5ccs, she took me to 6.5.  I’ve eaten lunch, and so far so good.  I’m guessing dinner and breakfast will tell.  I’ve heard that people feel most restriction in the morning.  For those of you out there, reading and checking in…how many cc’s were in your band when you hit the green zone? I have a 10cc band.

I’ll keep you posted on whether I move from yellow to green…but for now I think I am still in the yellow.